Self Destructive Tendencies

Cutting is no longer enough
I can't take the pain anymore
I reach for the lighter
In my dresser drawer

New scars
The new shapes
Of safety pins
And needle tips

The flame is bright
Doesn't feel wrong
Not at all right
Conflicting feelings every night

The long sleeve shirts
Wristbands galore
She gets mad at me
Can't tell her anymore

New addictions
Pills and such
Falling further
Can't feel much

Such a disappoint
Can't look you in the eye
You ask what's wrong
I turn my back and cry

Maybe someday I'll find the courage
To tell everyone the truth
Until that day,
I'll continue lying to all of you