Friend: how can you care about someone who acts like they dont care about you?
me: to be honset...... i dont know. to be honest. i would go to the ends of the world for him. i would do anything for him. i know that i love him and he doesn't love me. but loving him isn't a choice anymore. i can see that i am ment for him but he doesnt feel the same way. my feelings for him is like a punishment tow...ard me. cause i know i will never have him. i know he'll never be happy with me. but he is just to kind to say it.
friend: kind? no he isn't kind he's selfish. this is what's going to kill you isn't it?
me: bowed my head
friend: i wont loose you. you have to see that other people love you good people that care about your happiness. i wont let you go. i wont let you go with out a fight.
me: what's the point? we've lost already. i'm sorry. i'm sorry i didn't fight. i'm sorry i gave up. but now it's to late. i dont have the strength to fight. i'm bound.
friend: you dont have to fight. i'll fight for you. you are lost right now. i'll be everything you need. i'll go to the ends of the earth for you. with or without permission so dont even try to push me away cause you need me to get through this. and i need you.
me: i'm scared
friend: i am too. but we can be scared together. you are not alone i promise you.
we sit watching the sunrise as he made his promise he tuke my hand and i held on tightly cause i know this is going to be a ride that i can't ride on by myself.
