It's now......

It's now 2:35am and I'm sitting here trying to figure out why i did what i did....
Why i treated one of my dearest friends like dirt
Why everyday i put him down with each new word that i said
Why i made everyday of his life a day of pain

It's now 2:39am and I'm still trying to figure out why with every word of helpfulness, encouragement, and love from him came 2 words of anger and hurtfulness and sadness from me..

It's now 2:44am and i finally figured out why i did what i did..
Why i stabbed one of the most amazing people i have ever met in the back and made his heart fill up with hurt and anger and sadness..

It was because i was jealous of not being the only one...

People if u have a friend who lives his life helping others and always seems to ignore u and makes u feel unimportant and uncared for, think again before u go and do something stupid, like break his heart...