Goodbye...

The thoughts and questions running through my mind once again...
why was it my life..
why did it have to be this way..
remembering only sadness
and pain in my life..
never true joy or happiness..
looking through my drawer..
finding my old best friend
i thought i had locked and stored you away forever..
oh how i missed you best friend...
your sweet
deadly
sharp touch against my body..
makes me feel like time has stopped..
all my uncontrolled thoughts.. all frozen in time..
as we intertwine together once again harder and deeper than ever you cut deep into my skin..
the feeling of knowing i may have cut to deep just gives me all joy of knowing im dying..
grasping a near by pen rambling for some paper..
trying to gather my last words to put them on paper..
listening to the last sounds of life..
taking last looks and breaths it is now a goodbye forever..
trying to form some strength to write my last words..
gripping my bloody pen..
glancing at my wrist now drifting in and out of life..
seeing the blood flow like a dam has broken..
loosing grip of my best friend slowly closing my eyes...
as the last thing i see is you dropping to the floor.
my best friend finally is taking all my pain away..
slowly dropping you to the floor...
drifting off this earth..
all was written was..
GOODBYE