Alive

These days go by so fast,
I can hardly catch my breath.
My eyes cannot see,
any of my future steps.

I did not want the thought,
it's far to early to think.
The seconds constantly coming,
the beats of our hearts, every little tick.

Even though I'll always love you,
I cannot take this state.
Your beautiful soul will be mine,
if only I could stand the wait.

I cannot control this choice,
no matter how hard I strive.
I really want to know your name,
and if you are really alive.