An opened door

After you left me
I have the same dream
Over and over again...

I see just your back,
You're in the jacket, because it's so cold..
My heart is getting flooded
With fear and all feelings untold.

I see an opened door,
You hold the bag and my heart that you won,
And I know that just in a second
You and the heart are gone.

I can't say a word,
All the words in this world isn't enough
To describe how much it hurts -
Loving without any bluff.

How can I tell you?
I don't know what to do to make you stay,
I don't have the strength around you,
My life is under your sway.

Without looking at me
You go out of my life-door leaving faint gleam,
I wake up every time at this moment
Realizing that was just a dream.

It's my dream-reality now
It feels like I'm stuck somewhere between
I can smile and deceive my friends but
I can't change the feelings unseen.

I wish to have that dream again
No, not to suffer or see your back anew..
To let you go finally!
And close the door after you....