My Angel

Dear diary,
I met her again today,
and I was once again
reminded of
her beauty, her grace,
and her unparalleled
kindness

But alas, diary,
it wasn't all good,
it wasn't all joy
because now I am left with
an aching heart
and a mind in despair
knowing that it can
never be

Why? Why, diary?
Why have I no self-preservation?
Why do I have no control?
My mind is clear, and
my knowledge is absolute
But my feelings are a
relentless force
And they give me no pause
Constantly battering my senses
Constantly battering my thoughts

God dammit, Diary!
I may have been Blessed
by an angel,
but God knows, sometimes
it feels more like a curse

*Sigh*... Forgive me,
beloved diary,
I guess I just had to let
Some of it
out.