Today

Today i woke up screaming silently

only to find myself still in this prison

inside my head shaking violently

the pain inside has risen

searching for a purpose

searching for a reason

you will never know

and you will never understand

what goes through my mind

with this pen in my hand

i feel at peace

a power

a confidence

that is otherwise gone into the darkness

of my despair

gasping for air

grasping this mirror

looking back at fear

the only problem is i care

the only solution is not to

deep inside this scarred up body

there are cuts too deep to erase

when you try to avoid seeing your own face

where does one go when you cant stand yourself

when the man you are hates who you have become

heart on your sleeve mind on the shelf

answers are somewhere in the dust