It's hard to imagine relationships with trust
It's hard for me to picture being accepted
It's hard for me to feel like I'm enough
It's hard to trust like I'm not just being tested
I want to feel peace in communication
To feel like there aren't underlying motives
I don't want to feel less than anymore
I don't want to feel like I have to control
I feel controlled, I feel manipulated, I feel weak
I feel less than, I feel scared, I feel alone
I pray your love weaves through my insecurities
I pray your love weaves through my shame and self punishment
I pray you hold me in your grace,
I pray you fill me
Thank you for your love,
I am scared feeling again.
I am scared to feel.
I am scared I wont feel. Im scared. May I come to you in my fear and hurt and weakness and pain and yearning and wanting and needing and feeling.
