I don't know if this is real or just fiction.

But If it was real, I'm sorry.
I don't know either. but things happen for a reason.
Perhaps, what you saw during that car crash was how this world is turning more blood everywhere. Everything is not making sense.. And by not hearing someone telling you come here my child is because it was not your turn yet. I'm a believer and For those who have been in accidents and they are still alive, it's for a reason. Though, I know it's hard to lose someone and Understand things, it's tough. More than tough, heartbreaking and even we can lose notion of our reality.

As for the death of your beloved. I'm sorry again. I wish I could know so I could tell you, but perhaps later on you will know it. Though, fudge. I really can't distinguish between real or fiction in this piece.