Lost and abused

I'm tired of felling lost and abused.
scared and confused.
you leave me sitting here on the floor,
wishing i was dead.
i said i loved you
... and i ment every last word.
but the person you have become frightens me.
i want to help you,
i know you are stumbling.
i know you are scared.
why wont you let me help you
why wont you let me in
why do you hit me?
why do you scream
i know you are upset and scared
but if you would just let me.....
i think i could help.
if anyone knew they would say i shouldnt be with you
and maybe they are right.
i know i'm loosing you.
you are slowly slipping away.
i know that anyone in my shoes would walk away.
i sit here on the floor crying cause i can see
the painful mark you have left on me.
my mind says walk away.
but my heart crys out to you.
i know i cant walk away.....
but i cant stay.
so i have made my choice
the decision is clear.
if you loved me
then you wouldnt have abused me
so i stand here with the blade in my hand
ready to make the only decision that is clear to me.
~lost angel