Alone

I sit by my window
13 don't know nothing
but sharrow
my mother is gone
gone from my life
13 just starting to
become a women
learn from a young age
that I was abandoned
abandoned with nothing
but hate
when I turned 14
nothing changed
watched outside
in this cold rain
a gleem of hope
that I see her again
fades in the darkness
15 I'm still waiting for her
to return
but sad still weighs me down
I am in school with a frown
but stright A's I get
for the hope my mother
will like to see me again
Sweet 16 a delight
still waiting
but for what
my mother
I wished I could have seen her
but no
no she never loved me
no she never cared
at last I'm 17
at first I thought it was my
mother
but no it was her brother
he came to tell me that
my mother passed
wished I could have said goodbye
on this could winters night