Gone forever

I wish I knew how to feel right now
All this pain is engulfing me and surrounding me
I wish people knew but when I tell them they think I'm crazy and insane
No one knows the little secret that happens at night with the blades and knife
I wonder what people would think if they did probably huh she's suicidal I knew it
The pain is eating me alive again all I feel is the blade against my skin
The blood draining out and slowly leaving my body
I am feeling extremely weak
I lost to much blood I'm drowning in my own blood
I wonder how much blood you have to lose to die
My eyes are getting heavy they are starting to close
I hear my mom crying
I hear the phone dialing
I hear nothing
I am gone
I hope my mom finds the note in my hand
If she does she will know I am happier and in a better place
All the people who made me sad will know longer
Ill always be happy for now on