I wish you were here

It still doesn't feel real,
I keep telling myself "it's all in my head"

I sit in silence staring down at my phone,
Waiting for a phone call from you,
Telling me everything is alright, and that your home now
Like you always do.
It'll be 2 years in March,
And I'm still waiting

I still look at all your pictures,
Trying to remember every detail about you
I never want to forget you.

Looking at you in the hospital, you didn't look like yourself.
Watching your chest move in slight movement as you breathed
But once that tear fell from your eye, I knew you could hear me
I knew you were scared,
I wish I would of told you I loved you more often
I wish I would of held your hand and told you its going to be okay
I wish I would of told you to be strong
I wish I would of told you I needed you
Because now I need you more then ever,