Doors were closed, lights were off .. in a miserable lonely cold night
Tears were frozen, fears were broken .. taking the chance for my only last fight
Where I could gather my pain deep in my soul before feeling it all
There's no one now to bother again, or let him care about my last fall
I've been yearning for years for this moment to come, finally I'm living it now
I knew that I'll surrender again to my inside torment, but I don't know just how
Mistakes were done, scars were running under my skin filling every single part of me
Forgiven by no one, blame was killing with my wonder could I find another place to see
I turned to God through the empty sky where I could find my own salvation
Where I could ask him for another try, to let me reach smoothly to my destination
I'm talking to him with flowing emotion, he knows better what were always been inside
And I'm sure of his answer with no confusion, giving me my safest place to hide
Time could pass, life could be consumed without even confession that it was my fault
But I felt relief, when he turned me around shifting me back again to my default
Where I could sense my innocence returning to my heart after its mourning absence
To gather my reals that were fallen apart, ending those lies to prove my presence
Feelings were ignored, cruelty was poured to reach to my inside touching my core
Emotions were denied, memories all died .. how can I expect this knock at my door ?!!
All I can keep is my silent grief .. with a heart leftovers from my pitiful past
But it all ends up with a pathetic belief .. this mortal groaning forever will last !!!
