Tearing my heart open
Just to make you happy,
What am I here for?
When it's clearly a bother.
Not a smile on your face.
Every thing I do is wrong in your eyes
Every thing I want to say I so painfully hide.
Tearing my heart open
sewing it back up.
I just want to scream and let it all out,
I want to tell you to stop this all.
Nothing comes out,
Nothing will make sense.
No matter how much I have in my heart
No matter the damage I want to do to us
I will not do it to destroy you.
So I'll tear my heart open
and sew it back up.
This wrenching feeling in my stomach,
The hate is coming through.
The person I once loved or knew
Slowly fades away.
No matter how much I try my heart keeps breaking
I hold it together
Yet through its gashes it bleeds.
My tears keep coming;
A pit is created
No matter how much I hold myself together
Slowly I disappear...
I'll keep tearing my heart open..
and sew it back up.
Many times I have thought of running away.
Many days I have wished to be invisible
When I finally am, I don't want to be.
I want to exist for you,
I want to keep you within my reach
Yet, the more I push the farther you seem.
My grip is loosening
I'm giving up on us,
I'm giving up on you...
