Not that important

You left, departed on ship without even
saying I'm leaving I love you,
No further forewarning besides the day of week,
Am I really not that important to you? Do you not care?
A day passes after you are supposed to depart, no text,
no reply; wow did you really leave without telling me?

How am I supposed to feel? Am I supposed to just accept it?
I'm sorry I can't; it hurts to think you left without a word,
Anger fills my core every time I see your picture, a reminder
that I won't hear from you for who knows how long,
You said you were so sad to go, yet your actions prove otherwise.

I love you more than you know, I've never been so happy with someone, Don't I at least deserve a notice, I mean I am waiting
for you to come back, All my friends say don't get mad I doubt it was on purpose, But I can't help but feel maybe you don't really "love" me like you say.

You left, without a single I love you; I'll see you soon,
Sitting here pondering is this a sign to not wait,
Or did you really not have a chance to say you were leaving?
I won't know until your letter arrives; but I can't help but feel
I'm just not important to you.

-just a vent-