What have I done,
I lied to you,
which is the worst thing I could do,
I kept a truth from you,
and although I did it to protect you,
I hate the fact I've lied,
I wish I could tell you the truth,
but I can't bring myself to break your heart,
I'm lying to you,
I've told you things that aren't true,
to cover up what I've done,
I've done something I never imagined that I'd do,
and I judge myself for it,
because I know that at the time I wasn't myself,
but at the same time I knew what I was doing,
I hate knowing how much the truth would hurt you,
but I don't feel right not telling you,
my lies are what keep us apart,
and it's the truth that would keep us that way,
this is what I've done,
this is the consequence of my actions,
and I'm sorry that I've hurt you this much,
but I know the truth would hurt you more,
if you knew the truth you would never forgive me,
I'd never expect or ask you to,
I know what I'm doing is wrong,
I know what I've done is wrong,
but I can't make it right,
I promised,
and you know I never break a promise,
so this is my promise to you,
I will live with this knowledge in my heart,
knowing that it keeps me from you,
and it will always keep me from you,
and I promise it will make me suffer as I deserve.
