A song of yesterday and tomorrow

by Karla   Feb 2, 2012


"He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong."

W.H.Auden

When he died, she died too.

Wreathed in withered flowers

and silent pain, she sat staring

lifelessly at her trembling hands,

feeling words erupting from her

insane soul, abandoning her books,

her papers, her life.

----she was confused, so confused----

Her mind was a pool crying for the

Other Side, a sea in turmoil, a wild

tide embracing her heart in sweet

depths of anguish and horror.

----she was confused, so confused----

The condolences, the sympathy:

She remembers, she still remembers.

The comfort - where was it? Where

was it?

She was oppressed, suffocated,

agonizing.

She was looking for salvation,

She was looking for him in her bed,

in her hair, in her veins, in her despair.

But he was a petal falling, falling.

(her heart was still laid at his feet)

Where was he? Where was he?

Did he sleep? Say God he did sleep...

One day, one day in November, she

opened the gate, she greeted hell,

burning her heart calmly and so well.

----she was daft, she was dazed----

She jumped, diving into his soul,

crying, swearing she was whole.

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His bitter blood covered her in sorrow.

(yesterday and tomorrow)

Karla Bardanza

http://asmoonsewsthesatinstars.blogspot.com

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  • 12 years ago

    by A lonely soul

    A dark verse that drips with sadness in each line, touching the reader's core. To lose someone like a spouse, particularly when there has been deep love between them, is devastating. Sometimes, the degree of subconscious love held for that special someone will not surface, until after their death.....until the flood gates suddenly open up, and grief pours uncontrollably, sometimes in the form of an unending rainstorm of reminiscing thoughts.

    She was looking for him in her bed,
    in her hair, in her veins, in her despair.
    .........
    Where was he? Where was he?
    Did he sleep? Say God he did sleep...

    ^At times, it is even difficult to convince our psyche that he is truly gone....perhaps he is still somewhere, and will be back soon. Acceptance of death is not easy, takes months, years, and sometimes forever... True love does live on in hidden places of our heart and mind....sometimes till our own soul departs for its final resting place, to join and rejoice in the love shared in our lifetime.

    She jumped, diving into his soul,
    crying, swearing she was whole

    I only wish I could read in the poetess mind better here:

    His bitter blood covered her in sorrow.
    (yesterday and tomorrow)

    OR did she mean, (from my naive not knowingness)

    His eternal love covered her sorrow
    (yesterday, today and tomorrow)

    True Love never dies a natural death, it lives on forever, beneath our mortal skin, in a corner of our soul.
    Well penned from the sad corners of a grieving heart, Karla. (10)

    (Judging comment 2-12-12)

  • 12 years ago

    by terry

    The descriptive tone of your words allow us to internalize, to feel her pain. Very good.

  • 12 years ago

    by Gravity

    Yes you deserved this win 5/5

  • 12 years ago

    by Meena Krish

    She was looking for salvation,
    She was looking for him in her bed,
    in her hair, in her veins, in her despair.

    ^^Just reading this part made my heart hurt for your words made me feel the pain, the desperation and the misery this woman felt.

    But he was a petal falling, falling.
    (her heart was still laid at his feet)

    ^^Another heart cruncher! The pain of loosing the love of your life the one who made you whole.
    Your words really does find the way into a reader's heart and rips it! Each line was felt and with each line sadness just grew..a very moving write..
    Where was he? Where was he?

    Did he sleep? Say God he did sleep...

  • 12 years ago

    by Sunshine

    MIND BLOWING KARLA !!!

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