an eternal weary disgust stayed with me through the temporary comfort... and then you left.
I was not able to deal with your strength of will, just as I had no answer for your solitude and your disappointment... after I had whispered "Kieth won't like this"
"A"
His name flowed like water out of your mouth,
and puddled on the sparks between us.
My heart sunk into the deep end of that truth.
What if he knew.......
I swam in my thoughts until I was drowned in guilt.
"M"
When I received your text, my first reaction was fear. It haunts me "why we have to stop" While others thought I found happiness, I felt pain... I realized my hope for happiness was a sham... and my pain was a sham too. I drowned you, and shattered that moment. I knew at last that this shattering had been irreversible, and the spell he binds to you can not be shattered.
"A"
I sent my thoughts through text because I couldn't face your voice,
I had opened the door for you
before stepping out of the home I had created with another man.
And that night you open the window to his memory.
But his name was but an added flame to a wick already at it's end.
So long as my beliefs remained a theory to you
our souls will constantly conflict.
To you, I am lost some where in the distance with your faith.
