Lifeline

Boy you made me smile like a fool,
Forget all of my words.
Blush bright red
And laugh untill it hurt.
You made me remember
What life was like
Before I got hurt,
And chose to pick up a knife.
You made me stop cutting
Stop harming myself.
You were my life line
When I needed help
So I didn't have tell
My razor my secrets
I could tell you
And I knew that you'd keep it.
But when that day came
And all that went away
I didn't know what to do,
How to act or what to say.
It was like the ground was ripped
From under my steady feet
And I got tossed into a world
Where I could no longer see.
The world had changed so fast
Right under my nose
What was I supposed to do
With no where to go.
No one to hold my hand
When things got tough
No one to make me feel
Like I was good enough.
So I decided to do
The only thing I knew best
Pick up the razor
And carve out my chest
So that love could no longer hurt me
And pain would be obsolete.
I ripped out my heart
And watched it bleed at my feet.