Having no hope

Hope is when u believe that something good is going to happen
Hope is when u want something to happen
Hope is what my family used to have on me
But now they don't have that
Hope is what i used to believe too but now I don't
I used to have it back in middle school
There are too many problems now so i don't believe that there is hope
I believe there is actually no hope
Every time i believe, something bad happens to me
Hope is nothing to me now
I wish i never had hope