Letting Go of a Fake Bliss

Here I am left with nothing

My mind and my heart can't feel anything

'Cos I am too numb to feel the pain

That was brought to me by your rejecting vain

All these times, I kept my eyes on you

'Cos i thought that your actions tell what is true

But I was wrong. 'cos it's all lies

And now faking smiles, when part of me dies

I've pretended that it doesn't hurt

I tired to ignore your hidden smirk

I forced myself to see you positively

But in the end, My dreams betrayed me

And now, I must say, it hurts so bad

This kind of hope I never had

Made me believe that it is something

That your actions tell hidden meanings

I admit, I made myself believe

But this idiocy had also made me grieve

I thought with time you'd tell it all

That you had loved me and that you fall

But no! These are just dreams

My heart can no longer hide my screams

I want to shout, I want to cry!

I want to stop this pain and die!

But though my life is not worth living

I would still risk and give my everything

And hope someday, I could finally find

The cure to the pain that I'd kept behind

I know by time, I could forget you

This may take forever, I know how true

But then, what else could I do aside

From burying the things that hurts me inside