I guess you think its easy to smile when everything everyday harder, where were you when i just wanted to end everything , never did i expect to lay on the floor sweatshirt soaked in tears and still have the need to be with you lost and with everything that's about to happen what will you do when I'm on the floor not just crying but watching as the blood falls just as much as tears, the pain i feel sometimes are what completely destroy me. Are you waiting for me to get the heck over you? Are you waiting for me to walk away? because if you you might as well stop because that wont ever happen. I cried in the ocean and when you find that tear that's the day ill stop loving you. I'm sick of hearing baby girl everything will be okay . Because I'm still questioning where were you when everything was falling apart. You will never understand how much that has hurt me. I'm just saying being without you is like waking up and getting shot in the chest and each time the guy with the gun gets closer and closer and the pain gets worse and worse. Its that moment when you feel everything and nothing at once. i hope you never feel like that because its terrible. Crap here comes the tears again..... </3 its not easy getting over you
