Im so stupid

I'm sat here looking at the early morning stars,
Its times like these I think I'm from Mars.

I'm looking at the three stars on orions belt,
My love for you no one else like have I felt.

Why cant I ever get it right,
I need to stand there an put up a fight.

I could't do it in your kids home,
That's why I had to get him out by txing his phone.

I'm sorry that I went behind your back,
Sitting thinking about not being with you gave me a panic attack.

You have changed the whole outlook on life,
How joyful an happy it makes me to know you said you'd be my wife.

I'm sorry for what I did do,
I could't stand the thought of loosing you.

I'v gone an fooked things up big time,
I'v gone an blown any chance of you being mine.

I don't want you to go back to that place you know so well,
That place you call your hide away shell.

Whatever you want even if its just friends,
I will be there to keep you strong till the end.

I'll say it to you 1 more time,
I'm sorry babe I'll love you till the end of time.