Love I can't find

Where are you?
I am here
I was waiting
hopeless
and dying
and suicidal

I wanna die
tell me how
how to kill
this life of mine

my life sucks
not just now
but for all my life

it always sucks
and it's getting me
I wanna get a life
but can't find it

my tears are flowing
my eyes are swelling
eyes are getting red
please help me God

I wanna be full
full of love from someone
someone I know whose real
not just a ghost I get to talk
when he's alone

I die
I die
to day, I died
I died because of you

the day I died
is the day I'm loneliest
help me now
help me now

I wanna get out of here
how can i do that?
how life has got me here

why am I so unlucky?
why am I so ugly
I'm ugly now
and forever be ugly
in my eyes

how can I get out of here?
in this dark side walk
of my life.

I guess I must end this now
this feeling keeps hurting me
this ghost must rest in peace

oh sleep now
my unfavourable life
rest my dear
for there will be sunshine
on daytime