Longing for the Past

Dying for relief
just wanting that sweet release
of red pain that once comforted me
I need it now, now

it's been a while
since I played this game
it's a dangerous thing
and one most solitary

lies and deceit
all so familiar
why did I start this cycle?
I should know I can't stop

no one knows my secret
not even with the reminder
of my scars- ever present
I hope no one will find out

I can't blow this one chance
if I do I'll be stuck with it
for my entire high school career
it will spread all over town

I don't want that!
I can't let it happen
so I continue to trust
no one, nowhere, never