Why Can't I Be Me?

Humiliated 11/2/11
overenthusiastic idiot
I was at a high point
why do people bring me down?

"You're on Nonexistent"
"But here's a chance to redeem yourself"
"Recruit girls to Colorguard"
"And you can be on Mixed"

it makes no sense to others
but to me, this hits home
I was so happy and overjoyed
now I am down in the dirt

"Why can't you do this right?"
"Why are you laughing when I get mad?"
"Don't you want to show Unarmed"
"that you are better off without them?"

why must people criticize
my silly, happy side?
yes, I know this is ROTC
but, people, have some emotions!

every day after school
and during 5th period too
it's "keep your bearing"
"stop laughing when I yell at you!"

when people I don't care about
yell at me, I laugh!
I don't know why, and I don't care
just accept that I'm bad at bearing!!

overall, I'd quit the corps
if it wasn't my school family
for that reason, and that only
do I stay and not be myself