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by Lizabelle Feb 19, 2012 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
It's my birthday today so happy- "hooray!" presents and cake "happy birthday" they say usually I feel hopeful for the next year so many possibilities! the future is so near this year, however I feel strangely glum the future seems dark of opportunities, 0's the sum for the next year I already know the plan therapy and medications and skin checks I wish to ban in just under a year it will be the "anniversary" of when my life crashed the date seems unnecessary by the time I'm 14 it should all be "over" ha! there's as much chance of that as finding a four-leaf clover so you can see why I'm finding it hard to celebrate my birthday to smile at a card I'll survive this day like the next one after that wait for it all to end while it simmers in it's vat 3/17/11