Music

Crying, sobbing
let it all out
emotions running high
I scream and I shout

listening to music
my savior and damning
brings back bad memories
now I'm running and hiding

I should stop doing this
but it's addicting, it is
powerful, touching music
like a sweet kiss

I seek out the songs
that kill me from inside
send me screaming and sobbing
afterwards myself I chide

an aching, deep hole
where my heart used to be
a familiar feeling
a bad memory

curling up in a ball
I wait it all out
'til the song is done playing
my sanity I doubt

as I curl up and cry
I somehow fall asleep
the next day shall come
and it all will repeat

3/8/11