I want to cut

I want to cut so bad.
I wonder if you even
care about me anymore.
It seems like she all
you care about.
It slides the knives
in deeper ever day.
Making my life go darker.
The days pass and
i keep hoping it will get better.
As the days pass it
just gets harder.
The razor blade keeps calling for me.
Ever night it gets louder.
I wonder how much
longer i can keep it at bay.
I wonder if I give in tonight.
if it would still call my name
tomorrow night.
Either way I still want the blade
to cut into my skin and make
the pain go away.