The Picture

A/N: Inspired from when I borrowed my "best friend's" phone and she had not only a picture of herself and a new girl as her wallpaper, but she also had taken the Aa off of my name and put it in front of the other girl's. We had put Aa in the front of our names to symbolize we would always put each other first. I was replaced, no longer her first.

Panic-stricken, completely winded
Deep breathing, stomach writhing
I must not think
Keep going, thoughts flowing
Ice-filled lungs, leaded tongue
My heart sinks

Dull throbs, pained fog
Constantly shifting gears and unrelenting fear
I remember when she would come to me
Insides pulled stout, turned inside out
Sudden asthmatic needs, unable to breathe
Nothing mattered, we talked about everything

A steady, calm heart beat, painfully, my mind retreats
Pulling away, thoughts led astray
I calm this frenzy unleashed inside
To become fickle, scalding acidic prickles
Hold it all back, stay on track
I won't let her see, this pain I will hide

I will not cry, will only lie
Nothing, nothing is wrong, because she can choose her own
Best friend, even if my heart will not mend
Because it isn't me anymore
It's the new girl
And I'm just history