Broken hearted once again, didnt think it would happen
Tears rolling like blood running threw my veins
It never had to be like this, he was a dream come true
Drugs was the makings of it all that tore us apart.
Two totally opposite personalities, amazing as it seems
Rages of anger take right over such an amazing soul.
He wants to be right, it kills him inside, I just cant take it no more
Efforts where there, but he couldnt stand the pain it withdrew
Screams of sickness, days of feeling pain all over the body n mind,
He tried so hard, but every arguement n disappointment, He had to run to it, it was the only feeling he knew that would get him by.
Living the streets within my home, Was never a normal life.
Having to lie to my family, telling them hes better now.
No one believed me anyways, it was my problem not their's
They looked at me so weak, but I wanted to fix him, he was so broken
Broken but wanted to be fixed, wanted everyone to like him
No one gave him a chance, I tried for a year, it hurt me to the soul
He was so good to me, but the sickness took over us,
it became our relationship, Love was still there but wasnt recognized
Love wasnt strong enough to make us last.
I was exhausted now, I couldnt do it anymore, it killed my inner self
There was no other world around us, it was just us and his thoughts
Thoughts that came from no where, illusions of things that didnt happen
Mental abuse was so unreal, I tried to ignore it,
Just like he thought he could get better on his own.
Forgave him so many times, so many apoligies he had.
Never would he do it again he said, He really meant it, but he couldnt do it
Stealing, lying, borrowing to feed his habit. I tried to keep us up, but it takes 2
He really loved me I no he did, it kills him now I no it does
He called me today crying, apoligizing and hurting so bad.
He wants to stop, but it took over his life, his body n mind.
Couldnt keep a friend cause rages was his bestfriend.
Nothing stable in his life ever, I tried to show him a normal life
Thats all I knew before I was introduced to knowing
Knowing nothing but the world of addiction, it becomes ur world.
Now I sit here alone knowing hes empty, with a seed of love for life.
Knowing hes sitting in the cold, not noing his next meal,
His next bath or shower or place to live.
Living day to day, minute to minute, hour by hour,
Craving for that sickness to go away
Wanting someone to love him but to fix it fast n easy.
