The letter of loss

She cries when she sees him with other girls
Her mind can't stop spinning, twirling a whirl
She laughs to hide all of her pain
And tells herself silently she will be nothing but plain.

Alone in her room she cuts herself softly
And lies to everyone including me
I just wish she could open her eyes to see

There is more than just suffering in this world
She does not have to lay on her floor curled
She can open her heart and her arms out wide
And look for a true friend that will stay by her side

She's hanging on desperately by a thread
She gets upset when she thinks about all the guys that have been in her bed
That's what makes her silent
She doesn't leak out a peep
Her heart is broken
She's fallen in to deep

She wishes he knew how sorry she was
But she doesn't believe that's a probable cause
She sits on the side lines everyday
And wishes silently that he would say her name.

She is filled to the brim with shame
She feels any moment she could be set aflame
No one knows how much regret she feels
She wishes she never feel head over heels.

For now she'll just sit alone in silence
Trying so desperately to follow abstinence
She'll make one cut maybe two
Trying to spill out all the pain and become anew
She cuts the wrong way
And bleeds herself to death
Before she dies she takes her last breath

Her friend had not heard from her in weeks
So he decided to travel to her house to take a peak
He found her body laying cold on the floor
Blood was smeared all over the door
He began to cry for she was his world
He head just could stop its twirl
He looked at her hand and in it was a note
It read:

"Goodbye world it is my time to parish
Tristian, you I shall always cherish
I lost you my love and could not live
So my life I decided to give."