WOOOOOOOOOOOOW
Omg this poem is I donno wut to say:)
I trully love it:)

Nana, I'm really speechless and mute.
All I can say is, Jazakallahu Khairan, Barakallah!

The title is slighty decieving here, because the ending is actually a very sad one in my opinion, saying that you cannot write in the way you once did, I know that maybe again I am looking for meanings that may not exist here, I felt like you were talking to your pen, or the you before time, when maybe you wrote in a different way, but you are telling yourself to keep writing and you may find your niche as it were

I think that everytime I read a poem of yours, I transport into a place of restlessness, my mind goes into overdrive with all the emotions and images you portray so vividly, I love this about your work, it is captiating and strong

Love
xxx

I could be wayyyyyyyyyyyyy off here but this is how I read your poem...

Which is awesome by the way...

I was always positive,
that agony was somewhere
next to us, to me at least.
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This stanza to me says a lot. The fact that you feel that the agony was next to you more than him makes me think that the way he felt about the relationship was much different than the way you felt about it. You could see that there were things wrong, but he couldn't. Was it because he just didn't notice or because he didn't care??? A powerful first opening that has made me think!!!

And I'm sorry that I vanished
into dust, without fighting
against the blizzards that hauled
me from one bend to the other,
like a worthless pollen.
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I like this. It was like you could not fight for the relationship when bad things kept coming (the blizzards could be a metaphor for obstacles) Maybe you have already fought before and have had no fight left in you.

Forgive me, unlike you
I couldn't find a way to
rhyme my words,
though my heart pumps
on the same beat.
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I feel a hint of sarcasm here. Maybe it was the other way around and he could not find the words to your heart?

It's just that I run out of
tunes ahead of a cheerful melody,
if played upon my tears,
and you ?
You are too content
whilst I dwell in doubt.
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Again it makes me think that he feels differently than you do about the relationship. Being too content and in the end not really caring

Even a river of beer
couldn't get me drunk
enough to be filled up...
with belief.
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I love this image. The idea that no matter what is fed at you, the words expressed you cannot believe... perhaps it was because this person has lied to you before?

I don't know if it was for the
truth, that everything flowed
from the shallow depths of
your words.

Like those verses
that'd split with your lips,
as you hit me with a
smile full of confidence.

So I apologize that I always
smiled back,
unconfident...about you.

Keep writing, though.
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Maybe this person is oblivious to what is going on. Maybe you do not love him the way you want to love someone.

Everyone wants a happy ending in a poem and in life. I truly hope that one day you will find it.

x

An enjoyable read full of emotions and images. LOVED IT

x

I'm sitting here In a daze...... this poem is WOW...... I really love how every word i read just packed a powerful punch.... loved your wording and metaphoric way....

"You see, there are several
words for apology, and even if
my verses aren't nailed like
yours, and that you live in
the limit of a word count,
while the number of lines
in each of my verses is jumbled,
but we both belong to
the same poem."

^^^^^ this stanza.... WOW, you nailed it...

This is how I interpret this piece.... someone hurt you... and this piece is showing the emotions in a powerful way... I love this piece... your ending line..... LOVE IT... it's a subtle, and yet a sassy sarcastic tone to it... and I think it's brilliant.... well done~

I very much liked this poem, it was almost like i could hear you speaking. I wonder just what was going through your head prior to and while writing this. Often times i feel like i cant write or i wonder how much my writing has changed... its different.

Your poems are always amazing.. Thank you for sharing it haha