Lying in a pool of red

I lay dieing in my misery and shame
Now no one but me can take blame
I was the one who carved into my skin
I was the one who controlled this sin
I cut myself to ease the pain
The pain that kept me from going insane
The more I cut myself; the more scared I got
The pain that I wanted to feel; I could not
I kept cutting deeper crying all the while
Offering other people a small weak smile
No one could tell that I wanted to die
They didn't believe my life was a lie
No matter how hard I pressed
I still felt depressed
So one day I decided it was all to hard
It was time to play my final card
Now I'm the one here lying in a pool of red
I now realize this is the blood I've bled
I was the one who cut the vein
The vein that held all my pain
Now I lay holding the knife
Because I decided to take my life