Truth in this Grave

I want to go back
To the place I left my soul
To the place it all went down
The last place I felt whole
Years can't escape
This feeling of dread
This feeling of insanity
You're still in my head
And I want to scream everyday
I want to break down in tears
I want to cut you out with a knife
I'm still chained down in fear
Some days I think it's over
But it's only a lie
I need to tell my story
I can't escape what I hide
Yet still I keep silent and pretend
I'm not that girl who was hurt
I will not face others judgment
I will not objectify others concern
This burden I will carry alone
And trust they will not see
What I hide in plain sight
They're pity will not focus on me
I will take my shame and bury it
So deep beneath my skin
Not even I can dig it out
My freedom I will never win