Suicide Note

I swear I'm sorry,
but i need to tell you my story.

The story of a girl,
who truly just wants to hurl
herself off a bridge.

It all starts out when she was little
Cue the sad music on the fiddle.
When her dad walked out,
Is when she truly began to doubt
That her family loved her at all
So, she began to fall.

She began to fall,
Every night she would bawl
Her eyes out until
her shaking shoulders would still.
She was just eight,
how could she be in this state?
All alone, confused, and tired
Worrying about mommy getting fired
Especially with her sister on the way
Yet, she got out of bed everyday.

This little girl put on the smile
Pretending to be happy for a while
Until she was alone
then, she turned cold as stone.

Fast forward many years,
with many many more fears.
She doesn't know what love is,
Thinking its a rough mans kiss
who took away her innoncence
So now she sits, trying to make sense
Of what he did to her.
She know longer knows where
She'll end up tomorrow
possibly, she'll have to borrow
A knife from the kitchen.

Many people have left her alone
Called her names, turning her to stone.
Cut, night after night.
She sure as heck wasn't alright.

Now tonight, she cant take the pain
So, she's gonna let her tears rain
Down over her cheeks
sitting in a chair that creaks.

Finally, she's had enough.
Lord knows she's been tough.
But it's become too much
and she has nobody to use as a crutch.
I hope you understand
that this hand
that she was dealt, must end this way.
Now, without a word left to say,
I hope you know who i'm speaking of
someone who has always taken blows like gloves
hitting her constantly, killing her was the theme.
That girl, is me.