Why do I bother with love?
I ask myself
Stinging like a pecking dove
Tears roll my eyes rapidly
My fist beats at the pillow
And I'm in such pain
To think I thought this pain could low
When it seems like no happiness I could gain
I moan to myself all through the day
Sometimes death seems like the only way
Because you killed the part of me
That knew what I wanted life to be
I dared to dream of fairy tales
With beautiful endings
Should have guessed
That you were just pretending
To love me
Same old story
Another bit of glory
Pulled off me when I think I'm improving
A knife stabs through when he keeps on moving
While I can hardly breathe
My internal self so seethe
He doesn't show a sing
He doesn't feel a thing
He doesn't have to pay
He's all the same each day
As I constantly hurt
My stitches don't stay
But he's pain's all away
Then I see why I bother with love
When who rounds the corner
Makes me heart jump and I'm no longer a mourner
I feel hope bouncing on my heart
And one small piece of me
Comes un-apart
I see visions of more chances
Dancing in my thoughts
Another take advances
I didn't hold as much fear to get toss
Broken up in the following road
As another man becoming my boss
And I hid the hatred to myself for becoming an un-treasured toad
Feeling again like that is how love goes
Destroys all you are
And you feel like there's nothing to show
But when I see him everything seems bright
It's new to me to hold another as a light
But you don't care about me
You refuse to be what I know we could be
I'll be hurt again in no time
But that's another fight
Right now I wish to turn away from this worrisome sight
That turned my heart
Gruesome if I might
I don't think of what you're doing to me
When I'm hanging on dream strings
That's turn into reality when it grows wings
