Call it what you want

Im in my head agaim
my anger put here
everything is black and red
if i could cry theyd be rage filled acid tears

i coul scream
but i wont help
im my own jailor
i hate myself

ill stay here forever
ive earned that right
see if you can find me
behind my vacant eyes

if i smile
its only to kill your concern
i dont want to leave so stay ur pity
this is what i deserve