I Never Wanted

I never wanted this,
I never wanted life,
I never asked but still I have it,
I never needed to know of the world but still it is here,
I never wanted to hurt,
I never wanted lonliness,
I never wanted the pain my entire body and all emotions and organs feel,
I never wanted to be born,
I would have rather be alone suffering bleeding in a tub of my own blood rip my heart out with a scaple,
I want certain death,
I want to watch as my blood falls from my head dripping off my face,
I want to taste the Blood pourning from my mouth,
I want certain death to own this poor sadden body,
when I bathe in the blood of my sorrows is when I shall smile true...........