Blanket Of Fat (Bulimia)

by Jenna Bella Oldridge   Mar 20, 2012


*Not my best but needed to vent*

Blanket of fat covers these bones
Ugly stretch marks stain my flesh
Hating this pale naked body
I pinch and pull my bulge like mesh

Self-Hate keeps on swirling
Stuck in a never ending rut
Wishing my bones poked through so
I could dress like a s*u*t

To show off my own body
Instead of living in sweats
To be ok with whom I am
Instead of having these regrets

But I am who I am and
I doubt I will ever change
I will always be the fat girl who
Looks ugly and strange

So here I stand in the mirror
With my blanket of fat
Hating my own body
Behaving like a teenage brat

When at 25 I should be a women so
Confident with a stable mind
Instead of a bulimic
Who has no self-esteem to find

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  • 12 years ago

    by Lostlove1

    This human body is only a cage for your beautiful spirit :) a prison of sorts. Make up your mind to make your prison walls as beautiful as you can if that is what you want...you have to want it Ruby-and it isn't always easy but anything is possible if you want it bad enough!
    Your poem was sad. And lots of people can relate to it too-thank you for sharing it Best wishes
    Lostlove~

  • 12 years ago

    by Kitty Kurse

    I can relate to this so much

  • 12 years ago

    by Breely

    Very strong and powerful message. Simply beautiful :)

  • 12 years ago

    by L

    T_T you seriously made me cry.

    You know, my only problem has been acne and but that's fading away slowly and I used to hate it. But I realize that looking at the mirror is a gate for depression. I realize that keep look at the mirror it was just hurting myself. You know, don't worry about being a overweight. You can lose weight, being bulimic as you already know is not the answer. I'm glad you are venting because it makes one feel better. Just exercise, don't drink sodas, drink water instead.

  • 12 years ago

    by Karla

    I simply loved the message. It is a strong piece. Everybody should read it.