Thank you for keeping your promise hun.
This poem is written gorgeously and I truly love it but my fave lines are

"The words they say get stuck inside my head,
Instead of suffering I'd rather be dead."

Its describing exactly whats going on in your head and sadly in a lot of other peoples too. At least in mine.

Either way... it was penned amazingly and don't give up sweetie, stay strong.

100/100 <3