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by LivHelen Kernan Mar 21, 2012 category : Sadness, depression / other
I'm caught in a situation... One I don't want to acknowledge.. What do I say...what do I do... Fear of what I know Fear of what I don't know Fear of what I will be betryed as... Everyone wants to know.. What I may know..what I remember Hell...it happened so many years ago God... I'm so confused..I want to help put this man away But I'm feeling so fearful and defensive All I want to do is run away What is the right thing to do.. What do I choose Silence Or Speak up of what I can remember Do I put myself through hell on earth Not just me but my family Knowing that his defense attorney Will look to completely destory me I'm such a mess Nightmares, can't eat, can't sleep..nausea and actual vomiting I finally told my family and the love and support Has really helped me My heart and gut says to speak up Yet my head says shut the hell up God I'm so confused What the hell desicion should I choose.. Do I speak about what little I remember Or reprogram myself to forget what I do remember Fear Fear Its all about my damn fear....I guess I need to decide whether I hide behind it or stand up to the fear... I don't know which I'll do...