You say I'm special but am I really?

You say I'm special but am I really ?
Cause everytime you feel down you come to me,
But as soon as everything is alright you leave.
So that goes to show that I'm nothing but a blanket that you sob in.
I really feel stupid for thinking that maybe, just maybe, we could be a thing.
But no it will never happen cause all you worry about is yourself.
I hear that your really nice,
But show yourself as a real jerk.
I want to know the real you.
I've seen you smile and not just any smile,
A true smile.
And how do I know it's different from all the others,
Well...
I've seen it in the gentleness of your eyes;
the slowly forming of that gleaming smile.
The way your whole face does it without moving a muscle.
It's like you were born to show that beautiful smile,
But you hide it behind those stupid smirks and that foul mouth.
Your actions show a dark side and tamed the light that is real side of you.