Desperately Calling

I found myself by at the edge of my bed,
Elbows on my knees, head in my cupped hands
A cry concealed within my heart, and a whole lot of words
desperately waiting to dive off of my tongue
Yet, I'm completely frozen from doing both

How is it I have so much to say,
but cannot find how to do so?

Like helium filling the inside of a balloon,
my brain is overwhelmed and filled with thoughts-
stressed, nervous
Just an ounce of pressure, a little pin
could pop my entire head

I find myself in nothing
but the presence of God and a quiet room

"Help me", I think, give me the words
I want to talk to You tonight
I need Your advice, Your guidance
on what path to take, what decisions to make
Please God make your voice audible

Complete and utter silence...

It's now or never, I think allowed
It's time for this moment that's overdue
Prayers are going up His way,
and all I can hope for in return
is the answer to my one and only question-
What should I do?