You are my poetry (Poetry is my reason)

Poetry is my reason
in the season of winter
just a splinter in my heart
and on my art of the love i lost
and at what cost

poetry is my passion
the color of my fashion
the scars i wear so well
cant you tell I'm broken just like you
i always thought you knew

poetry is my life
the sharp side of the knife
a side that on one really knows
and i know it never shows
but the show must go on
my mind is going, its gone

poetry is my drug
for the world my shoulders shrug
evidence swept underneath the rug
and under your feet
just below your seat
my brilliant defeat

poetry is my soul
long lost without control
just words i write
no i am not alright
its been my cry for help
my sarcastic yelp

poetry is my mind
just a darker kind
of evil girls and misspent time
my only crime
guilty of caring too much
your like a crutch
for this broken boy
just a puppet, yes your toy
just sit back and enjoy
I'll never say no
unless you tell me to go
and I'll beg you to stay
just another day
to spend some time with you
I'm stuck to you like glue

poetry is my light
in my endless winter night
the night she broke my smile
and i haven't been "OK" for quite a while
her grace took everything to me pure
day after day, how much longer can i endure
waiting for her call
my precious little doll
that never came
its all the same
am i to blame
I'm left alone
in time i have not grown
whats left can not be shown
its too ugly for this place
just a mask around my face

poetry is my hell
for every story I'm supposed to tell
because that is my way
i just needed something to say
something to give
my only reason to live
to make other people believe
can you possibly conceive
am i making any sense
just my personal two cents

poetry is my reason
in every single season
especially December
do you remember?
the train, the rain
the times we shared
knowing you never cared
at all about me
why cant you see
in every line
every single time
you are my poetry