I Miss You :[

Its been almost 5 years since you've been gone nana, & not a day goes by that i dont think about you or the last day we spent together. I remember it like it was yesterday.. I was cooking breakfast and went to eat in my room and you waved to me goodbye, not knowing you would be saying goodbye to me forever. I was doing homework in my room and i went to go see where you were and i saw the walker outside the restroom with the lights off, something told me not to knock, i assumed you were okay.

About 15 minutes later grandpa comes banging on my door to call 9-1-1 he said you wouldnt wake up.. I knew from that very moment and when i saw you with a peaceful look upon your face as if you were asleep... You were gone. To a better place, no more suffering, Im happy but at the same time it hurts soo bad. Because you were like a mom to me not just my grandma, you were there for my first steps, my first words, my first everything, when my parents couldnt be there you were there. I couldnt understand, how someone with such a big heart could be so sick with cogestive heart failure. It hurt me seeing you suffer, but not having you here hurts the most.

You werent here to see me graduate but i did it, and i know you wont be here to see me get married and have kids of my own but in spirit i believe your always with me.. But its just not the same. I know God took you because it was your time but im so selfish because i want you here! nothings the same anymore, it feels like ever since youve been gone lifes changed and not for the better.

I love you nana and i miss you sooo much i know your in a better place and i know one day we will meet again, it just seems so far away. Just Please be by my side as i go thru this life and let me know just like heaven, that your never too far away.