Scars

No matter how much I try to leave things behind,
Memories are strong enough to remind.
Even though I pretend it isn't and run away from you,
My heart still waits and all I see is you.

I'm trying hard to make myself strong,
To let go of the emotions that lasted for so long.
But now you come again to fill up the space,
To understand the painful smile painted on my face.

You want to go back and memorize from the start,
You want to open up my hesitant heart.
To understand what is so harsh and what are my fears,
And why I choose to smile through the tears.

It's not that I want you to regret about,
Because you are that someone I am lost without.
You might someday feel the way I feel,
But I fear, old scars are never going to heal.