Fear in You

Every time you go awayI can't hold back my tears.Every time that you are here,I can't hold back my fears.Cause you get mad and scare me.Then you say sorry and kiss me,And assure everyone you're fine.But you are not fine,You are sick so very sickThat's why you are so mad now.You try to hide your pain so much,It nearly always makes me cry.I see the strain in your face,I feel the firmness of your grip.It hurts me to see you this wayThat's why you decided to leave.And you left me there,All alone.To fend for myself in this scary town.
I am now older and wiser.You try to re-enter my life.I accept with open arms, Not knowing it was wrong.I thought you were much better now.But you are sick, so very sick.I see the strain on your face,I feel the firmness of your grip.You caused me so much pain back then,You still cause pain now.Now that you've gone.To me you are a never-was.Just a figment of my imagination.Now I too are gone.But my memory will carry on.Because I existed in this scary town.I am not same made up toy,To use then throw away.I am real,You taught me that.